It all started with one question: What is the purpose of life?

Now, I’m a 33-year-old man, and I have a problem—I always overthink everything I experience. My family is typically Catholic; they pray, go to church, listen to Mass on TV, and try to make me adopt their beliefs. But I’m a rebel.

I started questioning everything from an early age—Why do we need prayers? Why go to church? Why learn about morals and sins? Why should we follow a religion? I thought it was all bullshit, so I declared myself an atheist. Believing in God didn’t make sense to me. But the more I dug into it, the more I felt like a fool for even trying.

Then, I got deeply interested in philosophy. Let me tell you—philosophy is the foundation. Before learning anything, we should first understand how to think. Why? Because everything we deal with in life is an idea. Ideas come from everywhere—our loved ones, friends, books, teachers, media—everything we see and hear is a form of an idea. And if we’re constantly dealing with ideas, we need to understand their core. That’s where philosophy helps—it makes us think in a better, deeper way.

I came across nihilism, and it instantly resonated with me. I thought, This is the perfect concept for my life. Nihilism says there is nothing—no purpose, no meaning. Dig deep enough, and you’ll find only zero—nothing makes sense. At first, this idea helped me a lot. My character, personality, and emotional intelligence improved tremendously—until I